thank you SO much for reading & replying. it means so much to me. you have no idea how much confusion & anger this gives me. THANK YOU FOR HEARING ME OUT! <3

Of course!  I hate it when people tell you what you should or should not do in YOUR OWN space.  Also, a few years back I was really sick and then I had my two “close” friends tell me they thought I was faking it for attention.  So, yeah, I know what it feels like when people accuse you of that, which is just total bullshit.  Point is, that shit KILLS me. 

You rock.  <3